The Memory Lane

I can't figure out,
What's going in my head right now.
Never felt this way ever,
This certainly is the sure uncertainty,
Of what,
Future has got.
This time,
Some 20 days before a break,
Will always be travelled down,
The Memory Lane.
Not because its perfect,but
For its subtle imperfection.
When so many things will change.
We are all carefree and Unbound,
Princes and Princesses of,
Our own little world.
Have nothing to lose, and
Also nothing to die for.
Just little time left,
Before we are all set,
To enter the Mad Rat Race of,
Striving perfect Independent Lives.
Ambition, Power and Money.
Doesn't sound like a Dream, does it ?
Dunno what future has got,but
Certain things can be,
Certain in life, unlike all.
Loved ones will always,
Be by your side,
Helping you to figure out this life.
The chase will take us away,
For sure, But
Don't forget to live this "ONE" life.
I will always look out,
And will never let go,
Of what we have got.
Someday the chase will end.
Life would be perfect.
That day,
I would travel down,
The Memory Lane.
And smile,Thinking
I should have been,
The same.

Words Once Said

I have seen people together,

I have seen people drift apart.

I have seen them build life together,

I have seen them tearing each other’s life apart.

I have seen someone holding on.

I have seen others moving on.

I have known people who regret it forever.

I have heard them calling it ‘growing up’ altogether.

I don’t understand,

What people actually grow up to?

Numb souls,

Not affected by a thing?

Not crying for a loss,

Or smile for their happy life.

Such delightful beings,

Are so easily found.

People in our life,

Have become so replaceable.

Bonds are easily made, and

Also are broken with more ease.

If only ,

words could hold some values.

How can a person,

Not be with someone,

Even though ,

They once dreamed,

Of being together

Forever?

How can a person be replaced, and

Same words be spoken to,

A totally different person again.

A bundle of emotional needs ,

Sought out from some certain being.

Guess we are talking about some love thing?

If only ,

Words held some value.

If only,

Everyone could be honest with,

Words once said.

Love will find its real place.

Sleepy Dream

Sleep,Sleep

For you can be,

Really happy in your dream.

No one can keep you,

From being thoughtless,

For a little while.

Sleep,Sleep

For you can,

Find some real peace.

Away from worldly chaos,

You can spend,

Some real time with yourself.

Sleep,Sleep

For you can always.

Beam in your dream.

You feel nothing,

No pain,no tear

Sleep,Sleep

For no one can.

Really hurt you in your dream.

You can have,

Be,

Whatever You want..!

Sleep, Sleep

For who knows,

Everthing might seem alright,

Even for just a while.

If only Love could Save you !

You lived like a ,
Stray boat,
Moving aimlessly in,
The Ocean of life.
Nothing to care about,
Nobody to care for,
Nobody to be taken care by.
No life,No pain.
No loss, No gain.
You drifted with the wind,
Far from land,
From life.
One day you became,
Shelter of a drowning man,
He took you ashore along,
Brought in place your missing parts,
You never knew what it was like,
To be alive.
Now you ponder,
Were you meant to be his saviour,
Or was he?

All but Mist....

It’s always so sure,

It’s always so obvious.

Tomorrow will be another day,

And we will become a day older,

But it has always been about

What if?

Taking life for granted as we go,

Planning for things far ahead,

What a waste of time,

To be so sure of life.

Neither pessimism,

Nor the absence of hope.

Just faint realization,

We are just mere toys,

In the hands of creators.

Can look back in past,

Can plan for future, and

Waste the more worth present in it.

The choice is yours,

To be taken by the flow,

Of destiny,

With weak possibilities,

Or act in the present, and

Never regret a second.

Be someone,

Not just among everyone.

That someone who made,

Every second of his life,

Count,

Every act,

Worth being remembered,

That someone,

Who lived everyday,

But was too alive to be dead,

In any way.

Of Memory and Faith..

I don't know what to say,

I wont say,

"I know what it feels like",

Nobody can, because,

Its only you, who knows,

What you have lost.

You have nothing but,

Memories in heart,

Indestructible unlike life.

You have it all.

You were unaware,

But the soul has been gone,

All the while,

You smiled,

Unaware of all who cried.

You regret not having said goodbye.

You loved,

You lived,

You adored,

You believed.

But God had some bigger plans.

He is asking up there to forgive.

You held him dear,

But Gods' intentions can never be clear.

Life is a wheel,

Spokes are its phases,

If a spoke marks a beginning,

Other marks the end.

Its speed is what earthlings,

Have no control on,

But certainty of life is as,

certain as death.

But its a wheel,

An End will lead to,

A beginning without fail.

Just have faith and recognize,

Some obvious trail.:)

Should I be Happy or Sad ?

They are all around,

Congratulating you,Wishing you success,

You are beaming,

Happy that your Hard-work paid.

Where am I ?

What am I doing ?

I should be there,

Beside you,

Feeling proud.

But I am alone,

In a dark room.

Crying.

You come to see me,

But you have seen me crying,

All time along.

So,my tears don't matter anymore!

You shrug it off.

Ask me to cheer up.

On the fact,

That you are going.

What if I haven't

Loved you enough,

To want you to come back.

What if you found me,

Too difficult to keep up with.

You ask me to trust you.

Honestly I do.

Its me who never fails,

To surprise me.

I am paranoid,

I am insecure.

I feel am not some one's,

Dream come true.

I have never got,

What I ever wanted.

But I got you.

That seems,

So not true.

You have been with me,

All this time.

We got closer,

Limits forbid.

I have nothing left,

That I call mine,

But you.

So,you are all packed up,

Ready to fly off,

New life awaits,

In sky you will soar high.

I will be here,

Trying to figure out,

Should I be happy or sad?

With no one around,

I would want to live for,

With my reason gone.

Drifting Away....

She is sitting confused,

Not anything new,

But she is mused,

Trying to figure out,

After all the dreamy days,

Passed away,

Was it love after all?

Coz she cant trust.

She talks to herself,

What can I do?

Why is it that,

I find It difficult,

To trust you?

I mess it up all,

But its always me,

Who comes around,

After all.

Coz I dont find a reason,

To not trust you.

But I cant trust you,

When you say,

You can do anything for me.

Well am not that kinda girl,

Who is mean enough,

To put it to try,

I want to talk about things,

You find not worth talking about.

Coz all I want to talk about is,

LIFE.

You live in your own illusions.

I feel like being,

Just a satisfying addition.

Just shallow,

All shallow.

I cant even talk about and,

Dream of future together.

Coz you think its pointless.

As it is uncertain.

But actually its certainity of it,

That makes you freak.

I respect life,

I find you passing time.

I find it pathetic,

You find it simply amazing.

You are addicted to,

Your way of life.

I am addicted to mine.

I dont have any reason to stay,

Its all Drifting Away....

EVER....

Ever trusted someone,

Too much ,

Who let you down,

Leaving you with nothing,

But a feeling that,

The world out there,

Is no better ?

Ever lived the fear,

Of being hurt again, and

Breaking down forever ?

Ever felt the pain of,

Not knowing,

If at all it was fault,

On your part,

To have gone through,

All that ?

Ever been in love,

Soulfully happy,

Yet trying to figure out,

In anything and everything,

What possibly can go wrong?

And knowing that,

All you would do about it,

Is hate yourself more,

Because of all the reasons,

You would believe,

You were not supposed to,

Fall in love.

Have you ever....

Loved someone so much..?

Still but Moving

Everything beautiful,

Everything still,

Everyone around,

But kind of underground.

It’s you and your life,

That you can see.

As only you see ,

Your dream.

Sometimes life can be,

Too beautiful,

That you deliberately want to,

Confuse it ,

With a dream.

Eyes open,

And it’s gone.

You don’t even try,

To hold on.

You simply let go,

And move on.

When we are happy,

We try for it to stay,

Believe me,

It’s addictive.

After all it’s nothing but Dopamine.

You say live in the moment,

But alas!

I can’t.

How does it feel?

When you have it all,

But deny,

Coz you don’t know,

If ever,

You'll have to let go and,

Move on.

What it would be like...!

Feeling so high,
Yet so low,
Desire the most,
Yet find it easy to let go,
Its so easy to move on,
Yet a part of you can be left behind,
I know the truth,
Yet I want it to be a lie,
I know you are a dream,
Yet I wait you to be a reality,
All I want to know
What would it be like
If you like me more than I.........?

Once,...

I wish I could keep,
Calmness of once ,
Turbulent sky.
Smoothness of once,
Rough stream.
Silence of once,
Loud night.
I wish I could keep,
My heart....
That was once mine..

..Cluttered Thoughts..

For the first time,

In my life,

I don’t know,

About what will I write?

Oh no, am not low on,

My emotional charts.

It’s only that,

I couldn’t pick one from,

Clutter of several thoughts.

OK lets treat the untreated.

Rain

I don’t love it,

For the first time.

Makes me realize,

What a gloom life,

Could be,

Without sunshine.

The Grey covers,

Once in a while,

Is bliss.

But if it persists,

It symbolizes

No life.

Home

What a lovely word.

Full of faith, care, and selfless love.

It’s like magic,

The Perfect Patronus charm,

No evil thoughts,

Can penetrate in.

The feeling life’s great,

Nothing can ever go wrong.

Dreams

Troubling me a lot too much lately.

About things left undone,

About things that were never there.

Sometimes making me think,

Why can’t it be real?

Other times making me realize,

Walking up sometimes is,

Much more joy than it often is.

Fairytale

This was the most used word,

In past few days.

Oh no, that’s not what FB says ;)

It’s so lovely a word,

So full of angelic bliss.

What more can I say.

Love

Well, I am no authority.

As my friends would say.

But its same feeling you get,

When getting drenched,

In rain.

You know you’ll fall sick,

But if you live those moments.

Nothing else ever matters.

Thus ,love is another fairytale.

They say fairytale do not exist.

So ever wondered,

Why do we even have them?

To make us believe,

In make-believe.

That can actually,

Let us believe in something,

Worth believing in.

Friendship

My life is a fairytale,

And everything I smile about

Is a miracle.

And I’ve been blessed

with bouts of miracle called

Friends.

In name of this miracle,

I have laughed off things,

I should have sanely cried about.

And all I regret is,

The time that went by,

Without a smile.

Did I say,

I didn’t know,

About what will I write?:D

Only Stranger....?

I just thought,
I wud write u a poem,
But whom M I writin to?
A stranger few days back,
Who just got a label of friend on his sack
Is "Friend" a wrd tht sums u up?
No,living it upto
Is what defines you.
Its all about,
Sayin kind word,
When I need it the most.
Its about feelin,
Ull be there to care,
Even when everyone goes worse.
Its about screwing things,
And callin to say,
"Dude m so screwed"
Its about laughing,
All creepy feelings off.
Above all....
Its all about,
Trust.
Something I have
Learned from lyf,
Ill give those pearls
Of wisdom for free.
Dont yearn for
sumthing so much,
And make it so grandeur,
In imagination,
Tht when u get it,
Have second thoughts,
Was it even worth so much?
I dunno if I annoy u,
I dunno if u really care,
And after all kinds of people,
Who came and went,
For good,
Its not wrong to feel,
Even this Fairytale,
Might end before it should.
I may be pain in your ass,
But I have got,
stock of aspirin,
Tht wont run out,
Even if u need it in bout...:p

P.S-Happy Bday....:)

.....Sail Through......

Something was so peculiar,
About someone who always seemed so familiar.
Yes,the distance was there,but
It was the feeling of being distanced.
Yes,care was there,but
It was overwhelmed by fear to lose.
Yes,the conversation was there,but
With caution not to hurt and get hurt again.
Yes,the creepy swallowing silence was there,but
Just to avoid consequences of speaking out.
I don't blame you,
For perceiving me,
In a way,I didn't like.
I blame myself,
For perceiving us,
In the ways we were alike.
Am letting go of,
Trying to decipher you.
Am letting go of,
Whom I thought I knew.
Ill sail through;
Though u'll never have to.
U'll never have to.......

Earth and Sky

The sky was grey,
The earth was wet,
I thought let it be today,
The Day,I find out
Whether ,everything what people crave for,
Is it even worth tryin for.
I took a plunge,
Out into the shallow,
The World out there,
Was ripe ,but not
Actually mellow.
It was so disheveled like,
Fast music slow dance,
Slow music fast dance.
It was all about,
Pomp and show.
Simply of things.
Lyk butterfly showing,
It has got wings.
Well lyf is about,
Being happy and making people
Around you who really care happy.
Being a support for sum1,
Who needs.
About doin things,
And just not be ,
Craved letters on gravestone,
Once u r gone.
So if u hav got dis lyf,
Dont be a butterfly,
On earth showing wings,
Fly high in sky &,
Discover highest you ,
Can swing........:)

PS-In flight composition.......:p
I

Independent Variable

Lying on my bed,
I thought upon all things,
Done and Said,
In past few days.
Why do we live?
Or Is the purpose of life...
Is just to live?
Live all the while,
Waiting,yearning,thinking,hoping,
What if?
I believe this one lyf,
One chance,
To see,To feel,To touch,To taste....
Just one chance.
So,Why waste a single moment,
In introspection, and
Do thing that gives us ultimate,
Satisfaction.
Why do we strive for power?
When we get it all,
In the love of person,
We desire.
Money?
Earn it for sustenance,
But please,
Do not let it be,
A reason for your,
Existence.
Love and live,
Care and forgive.
Its just one chance,
Its just one life.
Do make your HappYness,
An Independent Variable.
Dont let it depend on,
Nething not agreeable,
Love and live watevr comes by,
But nvr fear to let go,
When such situation arrives.
Nvr lose what is yours.
Do make your HappYness,
An Independent Variable.

What more can I ask for....?

It was just today,
I sat with my pen,
To retrospect,and
Realised that I have come,
A long way,
Since the journey of life began......
When I look back,
What do I see?
A cocktail of emotions,
A special sum1,
Who could clear out all,
My false notions.
You were always there,
To amplify my happiness,
When I was happy.
To hold back my tears,
When I was sad.
You were my decision,
For when I was confusd.
You held my hand,
Found me my way,
When I was lost,nd
Feard of what laid ahead.
You were my word,
When I was silent.
You lent me a patient ear,
When I freakd out...
You trusted me with your lyf,nd
I trusted u with mine.
Why do I need sum1 else,
When I have u,
Here by my side...
My extended soul,
My FRIEND.
There's nothin more I can ask for,
There's nothin more I can ask for....

P.S - Happy Friendship Day !!!!!!

....Beginning ends For Immortality.....

It all began suddenly,
It all went on happily,
But alas! It all even ended pathetically. :-/
What began....
O.. it was a certain bliss of happiness that began....
Was it jus friendship..?
YES we shared everthin..but
Nah it was sumthin more
Was it love..?
Yeah it had love..but
Nah it was sumthin more
It had the care of a grandma's lullaby,
It had rebuke of a caring father,
Wen a situatn arrrivd.
It seemed to me a miracle,
wen u lookd at me d way
I lookd at myself.
I thought its just a dream.
I told u evrything wat i felt,
Nd I swear I never FEIGNED.
Told u everythin wat i saw ..wat happnd withot veil.
While all the time ready fr a thunderous scoldin..
Wen i was too much bubbly outside.
o my god m such a child.
But fr the first tym in lyf i tried hard to grow up.
That made me be the way I wasnt supposd to be.
I was just not so much me.
I did a big mistake,
I tried to give a name to the bond tht was der..
But wid tht name came memories of past,
Hw I was betrayd?
This is wat makes me stp goin ne furthr evrytym.
coz sumwer I read.
In lyf we have a lot to lose,
And so little to choose,
So nvr evr lose in lyf
What u choose.
It was the fear to lose tht made me freaky tht day.
But plz can we take back evry name nd start afresh.
I dnt want nethin ....i jus want us both 2 be happy again.

...What I WANT to Be....

Please someone tell me,
What I want to be,
A part of me yearns,
To be left alone,
Away from the worldly chaos,
To some blissful place,
With only my soul,
To care.
Another part is,
Not what I want.
The boundless wind,
Flowing with Charm.
Never left alone,
Bcoz of leaves,
It carries along.
All I need is my,
Soul to Talk with,
All I need is my,
Soul to Walk with.