Of Memory and Faith..

I don't know what to say,

I wont say,

"I know what it feels like",

Nobody can, because,

Its only you, who knows,

What you have lost.

You have nothing but,

Memories in heart,

Indestructible unlike life.

You have it all.

You were unaware,

But the soul has been gone,

All the while,

You smiled,

Unaware of all who cried.

You regret not having said goodbye.

You loved,

You lived,

You adored,

You believed.

But God had some bigger plans.

He is asking up there to forgive.

You held him dear,

But Gods' intentions can never be clear.

Life is a wheel,

Spokes are its phases,

If a spoke marks a beginning,

Other marks the end.

Its speed is what earthlings,

Have no control on,

But certainty of life is as,

certain as death.

But its a wheel,

An End will lead to,

A beginning without fail.

Just have faith and recognize,

Some obvious trail.:)

Should I be Happy or Sad ?

They are all around,

Congratulating you,Wishing you success,

You are beaming,

Happy that your Hard-work paid.

Where am I ?

What am I doing ?

I should be there,

Beside you,

Feeling proud.

But I am alone,

In a dark room.

Crying.

You come to see me,

But you have seen me crying,

All time along.

So,my tears don't matter anymore!

You shrug it off.

Ask me to cheer up.

On the fact,

That you are going.

What if I haven't

Loved you enough,

To want you to come back.

What if you found me,

Too difficult to keep up with.

You ask me to trust you.

Honestly I do.

Its me who never fails,

To surprise me.

I am paranoid,

I am insecure.

I feel am not some one's,

Dream come true.

I have never got,

What I ever wanted.

But I got you.

That seems,

So not true.

You have been with me,

All this time.

We got closer,

Limits forbid.

I have nothing left,

That I call mine,

But you.

So,you are all packed up,

Ready to fly off,

New life awaits,

In sky you will soar high.

I will be here,

Trying to figure out,

Should I be happy or sad?

With no one around,

I would want to live for,

With my reason gone.

Drifting Away....

She is sitting confused,

Not anything new,

But she is mused,

Trying to figure out,

After all the dreamy days,

Passed away,

Was it love after all?

Coz she cant trust.

She talks to herself,

What can I do?

Why is it that,

I find It difficult,

To trust you?

I mess it up all,

But its always me,

Who comes around,

After all.

Coz I dont find a reason,

To not trust you.

But I cant trust you,

When you say,

You can do anything for me.

Well am not that kinda girl,

Who is mean enough,

To put it to try,

I want to talk about things,

You find not worth talking about.

Coz all I want to talk about is,

LIFE.

You live in your own illusions.

I feel like being,

Just a satisfying addition.

Just shallow,

All shallow.

I cant even talk about and,

Dream of future together.

Coz you think its pointless.

As it is uncertain.

But actually its certainity of it,

That makes you freak.

I respect life,

I find you passing time.

I find it pathetic,

You find it simply amazing.

You are addicted to,

Your way of life.

I am addicted to mine.

I dont have any reason to stay,

Its all Drifting Away....

EVER....

Ever trusted someone,

Too much ,

Who let you down,

Leaving you with nothing,

But a feeling that,

The world out there,

Is no better ?

Ever lived the fear,

Of being hurt again, and

Breaking down forever ?

Ever felt the pain of,

Not knowing,

If at all it was fault,

On your part,

To have gone through,

All that ?

Ever been in love,

Soulfully happy,

Yet trying to figure out,

In anything and everything,

What possibly can go wrong?

And knowing that,

All you would do about it,

Is hate yourself more,

Because of all the reasons,

You would believe,

You were not supposed to,

Fall in love.

Have you ever....

Loved someone so much..?

Still but Moving

Everything beautiful,

Everything still,

Everyone around,

But kind of underground.

It’s you and your life,

That you can see.

As only you see ,

Your dream.

Sometimes life can be,

Too beautiful,

That you deliberately want to,

Confuse it ,

With a dream.

Eyes open,

And it’s gone.

You don’t even try,

To hold on.

You simply let go,

And move on.

When we are happy,

We try for it to stay,

Believe me,

It’s addictive.

After all it’s nothing but Dopamine.

You say live in the moment,

But alas!

I can’t.

How does it feel?

When you have it all,

But deny,

Coz you don’t know,

If ever,

You'll have to let go and,

Move on.