What it would be like...!

Feeling so high,
Yet so low,
Desire the most,
Yet find it easy to let go,
Its so easy to move on,
Yet a part of you can be left behind,
I know the truth,
Yet I want it to be a lie,
I know you are a dream,
Yet I wait you to be a reality,
All I want to know
What would it be like
If you like me more than I.........?

Once,...

I wish I could keep,
Calmness of once ,
Turbulent sky.
Smoothness of once,
Rough stream.
Silence of once,
Loud night.
I wish I could keep,
My heart....
That was once mine..

..Cluttered Thoughts..

For the first time,

In my life,

I don’t know,

About what will I write?

Oh no, am not low on,

My emotional charts.

It’s only that,

I couldn’t pick one from,

Clutter of several thoughts.

OK lets treat the untreated.

Rain

I don’t love it,

For the first time.

Makes me realize,

What a gloom life,

Could be,

Without sunshine.

The Grey covers,

Once in a while,

Is bliss.

But if it persists,

It symbolizes

No life.

Home

What a lovely word.

Full of faith, care, and selfless love.

It’s like magic,

The Perfect Patronus charm,

No evil thoughts,

Can penetrate in.

The feeling life’s great,

Nothing can ever go wrong.

Dreams

Troubling me a lot too much lately.

About things left undone,

About things that were never there.

Sometimes making me think,

Why can’t it be real?

Other times making me realize,

Walking up sometimes is,

Much more joy than it often is.

Fairytale

This was the most used word,

In past few days.

Oh no, that’s not what FB says ;)

It’s so lovely a word,

So full of angelic bliss.

What more can I say.

Love

Well, I am no authority.

As my friends would say.

But its same feeling you get,

When getting drenched,

In rain.

You know you’ll fall sick,

But if you live those moments.

Nothing else ever matters.

Thus ,love is another fairytale.

They say fairytale do not exist.

So ever wondered,

Why do we even have them?

To make us believe,

In make-believe.

That can actually,

Let us believe in something,

Worth believing in.

Friendship

My life is a fairytale,

And everything I smile about

Is a miracle.

And I’ve been blessed

with bouts of miracle called

Friends.

In name of this miracle,

I have laughed off things,

I should have sanely cried about.

And all I regret is,

The time that went by,

Without a smile.

Did I say,

I didn’t know,

About what will I write?:D

Only Stranger....?

I just thought,
I wud write u a poem,
But whom M I writin to?
A stranger few days back,
Who just got a label of friend on his sack
Is "Friend" a wrd tht sums u up?
No,living it upto
Is what defines you.
Its all about,
Sayin kind word,
When I need it the most.
Its about feelin,
Ull be there to care,
Even when everyone goes worse.
Its about screwing things,
And callin to say,
"Dude m so screwed"
Its about laughing,
All creepy feelings off.
Above all....
Its all about,
Trust.
Something I have
Learned from lyf,
Ill give those pearls
Of wisdom for free.
Dont yearn for
sumthing so much,
And make it so grandeur,
In imagination,
Tht when u get it,
Have second thoughts,
Was it even worth so much?
I dunno if I annoy u,
I dunno if u really care,
And after all kinds of people,
Who came and went,
For good,
Its not wrong to feel,
Even this Fairytale,
Might end before it should.
I may be pain in your ass,
But I have got,
stock of aspirin,
Tht wont run out,
Even if u need it in bout...:p

P.S-Happy Bday....:)

.....Sail Through......

Something was so peculiar,
About someone who always seemed so familiar.
Yes,the distance was there,but
It was the feeling of being distanced.
Yes,care was there,but
It was overwhelmed by fear to lose.
Yes,the conversation was there,but
With caution not to hurt and get hurt again.
Yes,the creepy swallowing silence was there,but
Just to avoid consequences of speaking out.
I don't blame you,
For perceiving me,
In a way,I didn't like.
I blame myself,
For perceiving us,
In the ways we were alike.
Am letting go of,
Trying to decipher you.
Am letting go of,
Whom I thought I knew.
Ill sail through;
Though u'll never have to.
U'll never have to.......

Earth and Sky

The sky was grey,
The earth was wet,
I thought let it be today,
The Day,I find out
Whether ,everything what people crave for,
Is it even worth tryin for.
I took a plunge,
Out into the shallow,
The World out there,
Was ripe ,but not
Actually mellow.
It was so disheveled like,
Fast music slow dance,
Slow music fast dance.
It was all about,
Pomp and show.
Simply of things.
Lyk butterfly showing,
It has got wings.
Well lyf is about,
Being happy and making people
Around you who really care happy.
Being a support for sum1,
Who needs.
About doin things,
And just not be ,
Craved letters on gravestone,
Once u r gone.
So if u hav got dis lyf,
Dont be a butterfly,
On earth showing wings,
Fly high in sky &,
Discover highest you ,
Can swing........:)

PS-In flight composition.......:p
I

Independent Variable

Lying on my bed,
I thought upon all things,
Done and Said,
In past few days.
Why do we live?
Or Is the purpose of life...
Is just to live?
Live all the while,
Waiting,yearning,thinking,hoping,
What if?
I believe this one lyf,
One chance,
To see,To feel,To touch,To taste....
Just one chance.
So,Why waste a single moment,
In introspection, and
Do thing that gives us ultimate,
Satisfaction.
Why do we strive for power?
When we get it all,
In the love of person,
We desire.
Money?
Earn it for sustenance,
But please,
Do not let it be,
A reason for your,
Existence.
Love and live,
Care and forgive.
Its just one chance,
Its just one life.
Do make your HappYness,
An Independent Variable.
Dont let it depend on,
Nething not agreeable,
Love and live watevr comes by,
But nvr fear to let go,
When such situation arrives.
Nvr lose what is yours.
Do make your HappYness,
An Independent Variable.

What more can I ask for....?

It was just today,
I sat with my pen,
To retrospect,and
Realised that I have come,
A long way,
Since the journey of life began......
When I look back,
What do I see?
A cocktail of emotions,
A special sum1,
Who could clear out all,
My false notions.
You were always there,
To amplify my happiness,
When I was happy.
To hold back my tears,
When I was sad.
You were my decision,
For when I was confusd.
You held my hand,
Found me my way,
When I was lost,nd
Feard of what laid ahead.
You were my word,
When I was silent.
You lent me a patient ear,
When I freakd out...
You trusted me with your lyf,nd
I trusted u with mine.
Why do I need sum1 else,
When I have u,
Here by my side...
My extended soul,
My FRIEND.
There's nothin more I can ask for,
There's nothin more I can ask for....

P.S - Happy Friendship Day !!!!!!

....Beginning ends For Immortality.....

It all began suddenly,
It all went on happily,
But alas! It all even ended pathetically. :-/
What began....
O.. it was a certain bliss of happiness that began....
Was it jus friendship..?
YES we shared everthin..but
Nah it was sumthin more
Was it love..?
Yeah it had love..but
Nah it was sumthin more
It had the care of a grandma's lullaby,
It had rebuke of a caring father,
Wen a situatn arrrivd.
It seemed to me a miracle,
wen u lookd at me d way
I lookd at myself.
I thought its just a dream.
I told u evrything wat i felt,
Nd I swear I never FEIGNED.
Told u everythin wat i saw ..wat happnd withot veil.
While all the time ready fr a thunderous scoldin..
Wen i was too much bubbly outside.
o my god m such a child.
But fr the first tym in lyf i tried hard to grow up.
That made me be the way I wasnt supposd to be.
I was just not so much me.
I did a big mistake,
I tried to give a name to the bond tht was der..
But wid tht name came memories of past,
Hw I was betrayd?
This is wat makes me stp goin ne furthr evrytym.
coz sumwer I read.
In lyf we have a lot to lose,
And so little to choose,
So nvr evr lose in lyf
What u choose.
It was the fear to lose tht made me freaky tht day.
But plz can we take back evry name nd start afresh.
I dnt want nethin ....i jus want us both 2 be happy again.

...What I WANT to Be....

Please someone tell me,
What I want to be,
A part of me yearns,
To be left alone,
Away from the worldly chaos,
To some blissful place,
With only my soul,
To care.
Another part is,
Not what I want.
The boundless wind,
Flowing with Charm.
Never left alone,
Bcoz of leaves,
It carries along.
All I need is my,
Soul to Talk with,
All I need is my,
Soul to Walk with.

....Into The Dark Night....

Its around 1'o clock midnight,
After a tough day,
I was off my mind.
The world around me seemed,
To have stopped living,
With a beating Heart,
So I stepped into,
Another life.
The virtual world,
Where you could find,
People alike,
Talk,share,laugh,express,
More over cry ,
In plain black & White text in reply.
I was roaming about virtually,
Then suddenly I ran into someone,
Unknowingly.
It was like being in an old dreamy castle,
Which was always around,
But no one bothered to peep in,
To find out what lies there within.
And oneday you wonder in,
Unintentionally,
To see if there is something in,
That can occupy your brain.
I went in and explored,
And felt like,
I have been there before.
Everything there seemed familiar,
That was what made it,
Even more peculiar.
I wondered in that world,
For quite sometime,
The illusionary happiness,
Was so much addictive,
That it was hard,
To get back to real life.
I wished to have explored,
That castle before,
So that I could have,
Known it even more.
But illusionary happiness,
Is like fluttering butterfly,
In your hand,
You blink & let your fingers slip,
And it will vanish in air,
Till you have opened your eyes back,
Into dark,peaceful,lonely Night.

P.S-For my cc nocturnal frnd.........:)

Youth and the UNCERTAINITIES..

Ever since we were born,
Everyday somethings have changed,
Your knowledge increased,
You learned how to live,
You grew to find realities of life,
But one thing always laid inert,
Was the uncertaininty of what waited ahead.
The schools are done ,
With the uncertainity of college,
The college is done ,
With the uncertainity of job,
The job is done,
With the uncertainity of fulfilling life,
Life is lived,
With the uncertainity of death.
But from where did this uncertainity got its grip?
I ponder....
Ah,its all about Your life.
Its all about Your choices.
Its all about Your aspirations.
Please somebody not pave them away.
Your trueself may be buried away,
But you have in you,
The power to become YOU.
Follow your dream,
Follow your heart.
You and this world,
May be what ,
Wind and Vaccum are.
You have in you the potential,
That is bound to unleash.
World please just let them THINK.
Save your guidance when they,
Lurk from their Chosen paths.
Uncertainity is when,
You think about world,
The protocol they follow,
Go off track,
You may be uncertain,
But who knows its the path that ,
May lead to your,
True certain self ?

P.S. -poem given fr 5th pillar on spot poetry writing competition.

....Found My true self...

It was one beautiful night,
When angels were smiling,
Up in the sky,
I took my first breath,
Into this wonderful life.
The world has its own charm,
But its Darkness cant be kept aside.
I foll0wed the world's norms,
But saved my own thoughts.
A TRUE soul without bias,
Laughin wen felt like,
With everyone.
Cryin when felt like,
With no one.
Coz my happiness is for the world,
My sadness for my soul.
I think that is the way it should be like?
I live and love whatever comes by,
Its so eerie that people Falsify.
Its the unbiased innocent affection I give .
So plz dont take me forgranted,
Its only that I am unearthly Nice.. :)

PS- gt inspiration ot of nowhr and wrote....i jus luv myself

THE OLD GOLDEN BOX

I was sitting in,
My messed up room,
Upturning everything that came in way,
To doom.
I was searching for something,
Oh I forgot,what was that thing.
I kept searching,
Dusk became dawn,
But all I found ,
I had even more messed around.
I just thought of,
Leaving the room going away,
But as i dashed to the door,
I hit something,
And stumbled on floor.
There laid in some distant,
Corner a glittering thing.
I went over and,
Grabbed it closer.
It was an old golden box.
It was a kind of portkey,
Made me apparate in reverie,
I found myself in some Heavenly Place
Every mess around started clearing,
Sweet birds started singing,
Peace around me was beautifully springing,
Lights scattered out of trees happily hanging,
I saw children smiling ,
Those sweet,true,heartmelting smiles.
The bliss of Childhood came alive.
I saw the innocence in their eyes.
Thought upon,what place,
This world would be like,
If everybody had innocence in those Eyes.
A butterfly hopped and,
A flower popped.
I rushed to see the flower,
Oh my God It dropped,
And turned into a golden box.
I held it up,
Alas I apparated back,
To my world.
Much more full of life.
Thought of the stupid thought ,
That made me search all along.
Everything seems worthless,
To what I have now found.
What I searched for I forgot,
And cherished what I have now got,
My old Golden Box ,
Returned my Childhood Bliss.

P.S- This poem was a gift for my childhood frnd ...whom i found jus a day back.

A PROMISE MADE....

The semester starts,
And a promise is made,
Will study regularly,
Without fail.
Days pass by,
Class pass by,
Lab passed by,
And I am up on my bed.
Damn the promise,
Life is no jail.
My life,My bed,My pillow,
Thats all what seems sane.
Alarm goes off,
I wake up to rush,
For yet another day.
No progress was made,
And the CATs turned.
Like Buddha's enlightment,
Seriousness come,
as too think what needs to be done.
Hunt for the syllabus,
And books and notes begun,
Just to be overwhelmingly depressed,
How much needs to be done.
Somehow the CATs pass by,
With one thing in back of my mind,
That should not be the case,
In rest of the life.
But the day CAT is done.
Its such a bliss that no one can overcome.
All pains gone,
Just all fun is done,
The rejenuvation continues,
Till the other CAT has come.
Same condition persist,
Same promise made,
Just like them Term End comes,
But no exam is ever last,
There is always morning after night.
New promises are made,
Rest all so ever is great.

Back to present...

Hello there.. all my posts above this wll be of present ....I m done with the past ..and to bring to your kind attention a sad news ..i lost my poem Strange Is this world ..I gt its inspiration in TRAIN.Pray tht i find it.

SEASONS OF LIFE

As Spring give colourful flowers,
In the same way,
Birth of a child,
Gives the family happy hours.

As the Rainy season ,
Brings happiness as well as destruction,
In the same way,
Lovers' age brings,
Smile on faces,
Or gives tears for ages.

As in Summer,
Sun ray are vast.
In the same way,
Youths are very ,
Strong and fast.

As the Winter is,
Cold and white.
In the same way,
An old man is,
Frail like fading light.

As in Autumn,
Leaf fall from tree.
In the same way,
In the end,
Body leaves,
The soul Free.


P.S - My first poem class 9th english H.W. which I never showd my ma'am..Coz nobody else did.How sad i was about it:...lol

WHEN YOU GET WINGS......

Here when I sit on chair,
My mind takes me to the place,
Where I was earlier there.
The sumptuous food I took forgranted,
Revolves before my eyes reminding me,
How I never cared.
Everything of past seem beautiful,
Fear to see whats ahead.
I want to be somewhere,
I would really love to be.
God my sensitiveness will leave me of nowhere,
Why you made me that way,
Why I am this way.
A fragile soul bound ,
By a weak thread.
The last thread I am bound with,
Is my Father and Mother.
Now when I live alone here,
With threads lost,
But their impact has kept me together.
Wish they were here.
But when you get wings,
You have your own sky to fly.
This is what my Father said,
When eggs hatch birds ,
Feed into the mouth of chicks.
They teach them how to fly,
Then they leave them alone ,
And see them fly above thier Heights.
So soar up the new sky and ,
Let sky not be the limit,
Become someone who sets limit,
Higher than the SKY.


P.S -This poem was written in kota when i was emotionally 'overwhelmed':)

THIRST

I dont need a drop of water,
It cannot kill my thirst;
I dont need a glass of water,
It cannot satisfy my thirst;
The ocean seems too small in front of my thirst.
I wonder am i really THIRSTY?
Coz sweetest spring water seems to evapourate in my mouth,
what is it God ?
It is the thirst to succeed ,
It is the temptation to be on top.
And when you are out of your way,
To your destination,
Your thirst becomes killing.
So,If you want to get rid of your thirst,
Go for your dreams,go for your destination.
Dont linger around mirages as they are illusions,
And will give nothing but exahuation.
Keep on walking on the right path,
People will themself give you way,
To be ahead,
Fearing your metal core determination.

PS- 3-5 mins wrk durin competition prep....ma wouldnt have allowd more:p

NOTHING

I want to cry for nothing,
I mean everybody cries for something,
Something that we wanted
But couldn't get,
Something that we deserved ,
But someone else had,
Something that we suffer,
But can never express,
Something that is missing,
But not knowing what,
I cry for this reason,
I mean I cry for "Nothing".
Everybody is around ,
I like them all,
Talk,laugh,listen,get involved,
In conversations with faintest relation to me,
Trying to figure out ,
In anything & everything,
What exactly is missing.
So according to you,
I seem to be longing for something.
Dear we should learn from our mistakes.
But its human to err or To err is human.
I think I am kind of an influenced anaroid,
Of whom every now and then,
world has sucked out life;
Look the world around me is all bizzare,
All dipped and dyed nothing genuine nothing natural.
Nothing,the clothes you wear is according to,
What is in fashion not what you are comfortable in.
You have food that will make you look fast.
You wear shoes that will elevate you above your soul.
You have yourself from skin to core,
Out to become someone world wants to have.
Yeah ,Responsible citizens,building the nation,
Eradicating disease,developing technologies,
Becoming machine slaves.
We live to improve quality of life,&
Die before we start living.
This race you are in ,
Will give you nothing,
You will still be a "Rat" in the race.
So is what love now a days;
Not genuine,forced,tried,formulated,
Experienced,heard of ,walked into,
Got lucky,just not natural.
As the cool tantalising breeze,
As crystal clear flowing stream,
As the mighty highness of sun,
As the touching simpicity of moon.
The two stars glowing together above,
Sea of overcrowding,overlapping,
Entangled disco lights.
Stars just glowing effortlessly,
With some blissful aura of heavenly light.
They dont feign they are just themselves.
Together in the darkest hours
Vanishing in the bright happiness virtually.
But still... together.
Stars are in reality but a fantasy.
Something that exists but hard to realise,
Something that is there but couldn't be reached ,
Something that is there but fails to catch your sight.
So try to live for yourself,
Go out in wilderness relish your breath.
Find yourself ,search your soul ,
Be who you are not ,
Who you want to be .
Live the life dont think if you could have another.
God sent us all for a reason,
Try to find out what.
Everybody is worthy.
I say even a "Terrorist".
I think God made them to ,
Spread this message around the globe,
Dont wait for tommorow live for today,
Nothing is permanent you could have been one,
in World Trade Centre on 11th sep.
Search your soul find reasons for yourself ;
And please just dont cry for
"NOTHING".

P.S-The earlier poem was a bit inspired by dis one.I wrote this poem aft my three days at vit...10mins wrk plz dont try to find literature in it..thus..Was just overwhelmd and wrote it......giv me a pen and paper i wll do way d depression...haha poetic..its true to my lyf i can nvr speak meaningful coz i m emotionally dumb.

DARKNESS

Its a winter night,
With no moon in the sight,
Just a clear dark sky;
I look up on it ,
But see nothing;
I think about this life.
We live life as if ,
We will never die
And die feeling ,
We have never lived.
The one with heart bereft of values,
Is like living corpse.
Just engulfed in worldly pleasure,
We forget the purpose of life.
But one day when darkness falls,
We find nothing around but,
Ourselves in gloom.
All people around whom our life revolved gone;
All objects we kept hugged to bosom worthless;
All the places we loved to go bizzare;
All what we loved to eat filth;
All we would want to know is,
What we have done;
We are left to wonder,
If any of our deed was worth,
Did it give real eternal happiness to someone.
In our life,
If we have one thing ,
We can die for.
If there are people around,
We can give up our life,
So they can continue living,and
With them wanting to do the same in disguise.
If there is any place where we go,
Makes a difference there.
If ever we tried to feed our soul with spiritualism;
All this we will wonder,
When darkness dawn upon.
For one who kept the gods word,
Searched meanings out of life,
Worked for nothing but,
Just a blessing,a kind word,
Or simply a smile.
Loved someone with divine passion of life,
Did something that really changed lives,
Followed the spiritual path amidst,
the alluringly dark,
For them darkness never dawn upon,
They carry in themselves,
The glory of the sun,
With the impact ,
That will keep eyes occupied
Till the world goes numb.


P.S -This poem won third prize in VIT's this year cultural fest 'RIVIERA' ..on spot topic was given 'Darkness'.

Just Me!!!!!!!!

I dont know what made me create this blog but I m certain for one thing this is whr i may find my blissful self.yeah its lost wid sum cruel heart .....cold as rock.I fear to see whats ahead but cant keep my self frm peepin thr.I luv the aura of uncertaininty tht prevails.Hope sumday somewhr i find one who will let loose my trueself.